Aut viam inveniam aut faciam.

I feel so weak.

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I need to hurry up, get older, get financially secure, find a wonderful girl, marry her, and have kids. I want a family.

You’re not being very fair about this.

Running makes me feel SO good.

It could have been me.

I have only ever wanted one thing really. And I know I’m young, and I know that I should be thinking of other things. But I have always wanted a family of my own. I want a wonderful wife and beautiful children. That isn’t to say that there’s any way I could not think of my family as beautiful. I have struggled with this for so long. I want to hurry up and meet the girl of my dreams. I think I have. Unfortunate circumstances, however, have caused a large distance. And it’s been over a year since I have spent any personal time with her. Throughout that year, I have been going to college. I have so much wanted to try to move on. I’ve tried to convince myself that she doesn’t want me anymore so maybe I can find someone to love. I made a promise to her telling her that I would not move on until she tells me that she doesn’t want me anymore. But always, there’s a voice in my head saying, very simply, “Wait.” As a Christian, I cannot think it’s anything other than God. I’d like to believe he’s urging me to wait for that girl, because that would be my dream come true. But even if that isn’t what he’s telling me to wait for, I will trust him to do what is right, and I know that whatever he has planned for me will be wildly amazing. 

There could never possibly be anyone else.

And you use bible verses to condemn homosexuals to hell, you are doing it wrong. Honestly, I’m on the fence about the issue, I’m doing research and looking up anything I can from reliable sources to see what I should believe and what God intended. However, God DID NOT intend for us to condemn anyone. Ever. If we have a thief, do we say, “Oh, well now you’re going to hell.” or do we say, “Thievery is a sin, but we’re all sinners. I love you as a fellow sinner, and I’d like to help you.”? REGARDLESS of whether or not homosexuality is a sin or not, we should still be showing compassion and love to these people, and not the blatant hatred and condemnation that I see so often.

I think today will be one of the few days I think of how alone I am.

There’s a hole in my pocket that’s about her size.

Friends are dropping like flies.