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I feel so weak. This is the first time in my entire life where I haven’t been able to just let...

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 15:29:48 -0400

I feel so weak. This is the first time in my entire life where I haven’t been able to just let it go and move on. I should be able to. I’ve tried to isolate myself from you for months for that reason. I should be fine by now. I thought I was. I was so sure I was okay. And then you showed up to the open house exactly when I did. And everything came back and hit me like a freight train. I want you to be able to be happy with him, because you’ve moved on. And that makes me happy and sad at the same time, and I respect you for not having as much trouble as I have with it. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to get over you, because in all this time, it doesn’t seem like I’ve made any progress at all. But I’ll let you live your life. I’m not gonna force myself into it.

I need to hurry up, get older, get financially secure, find a wonderful girl, marry her, and have...

Tue, 14 May 2013 15:39:53 -0400

I need to hurry up, get older, get financially secure, find a wonderful girl, marry her, and have kids. I want a family.

You’re not being very fair about this.

Sun, 12 May 2013 17:51:39 -0400

You’re not being very fair about this.

Running makes me feel SO good.

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 08:37:00 -0400

Running makes me feel SO good.

It could have been me.

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 17:07:27 -0400

It could have been me.

Wait.

Sun, 06 Jan 2013 01:29:01 -0500

I have only ever wanted one thing really. And I know I’m young, and I know that I should be thinking of other things. But I have always wanted a family of my own. I want a wonderful wife and beautiful children. That isn’t to say that there’s any way I could not think of my family as beautiful. I have struggled with this for so long. I want to hurry up and meet the girl of my dreams. I think I have. Unfortunate circumstances, however, have caused a large distance. And it’s been over a year since I have spent any personal time with her. Throughout that year, I have been going to college. I have so much wanted to try to move on. I’ve tried to convince myself that she doesn’t want me anymore so maybe I can find someone to love. I made a promise to her telling her that I would not move on until she tells me that she doesn’t want me anymore. But always, there’s a voice in my head saying, very simply, “Wait.” As a Christian, I cannot think it’s anything other than God. I’d like to believe he’s urging me to wait for that girl, because that would be my dream come true. But even if that isn’t what he’s telling me to wait for, I will trust him to do what is right, and I know that whatever he has planned for me will be wildly amazing.

I had a dream about you last night.

Fri, 19 Oct 2012 08:52:54 -0400

And what happened in your dream?

There could never possibly be anyone else.

Sun, 23 Sep 2012 21:40:39 -0400

There could never possibly be anyone else.

If you are a Christian...

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 08:39:28 -0400

And you use bible verses to condemn homosexuals to hell, you are doing it wrong. Honestly, I’m on the fence about the issue, I’m doing research and looking up anything I can from reliable sources to see what I should believe and what God intended. However, God DID NOT intend for us to condemn anyone. Ever. If we have a thief, do we say, “Oh, well now you’re going to hell.” or do we say, “Thievery is a sin, but we’re all sinners. I love you as a fellow sinner, and I’d like to help you.”? REGARDLESS of whether or not homosexuality is a sin or not, we should still be showing compassion and love to these people, and not the blatant hatred and condemnation that I see so often.

I think today will be one of the few days I think of how alone I am.

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 07:51:47 -0400

I think today will be one of the few days I think of how alone I am.

"I woke dreaming we had broke; Dreaming you left me for someone new; And you cried, drying those..."

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 11:18:37 -0400

“

I woke dreaming we had broke;
Dreaming you left me for someone new;
And you cried, drying those brown eyes;
Crying you’re sorry; sorry won’t do.

But this is the way I need to wake;
I’ll wake to you, and you never left me.
All that I dreamt had been untrue.
Open my eyes; I see sky.

”

- Joshua Radin - Sky

There’s a hole in my pocket that’s about her size.

Thu, 26 Apr 2012 16:52:58 -0400

There’s a hole in my pocket that’s about her size.

Friends are dropping like flies.

Thu, 12 Apr 2012 11:15:29 -0400

Friends are dropping like flies.

itsallsolovely: This is me singing the chorus of Piano Man....

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 02:02:30 -0400

itsallsolovely:

This is me singing the chorus of Piano Man. Sorry it’s a little rough, hope you like it. :)

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"Dreams; That’s where I have to go to see your beautiful face anymore."

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 18:37:03 -0400

“Dreams; That’s where I have to go to see your beautiful face anymore.”

- Not Over You - Gavin DeGraw

what do you mean? what's holding you back now?

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 13:54:29 -0400

Well, you posted this to my personal blog, so you most likely know me personally. If you text me, I’ll be more than happy to fill you in on the details. Either way, come off anon, so I know who you are! ;]

What is your biggest regret in life?

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 07:26:38 -0400

That we couldn’t be together sooner.

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